Yesterday was one of those days I should have turned off the alarm, pulled the covers higher over my head and said, “To hell with it.”
It started with swim practice, which is the normal Tuesday/Thursday routine. I’ve been swimming on this team for several years and enjoy the coaching and the company. (The company was even better when my dad was living here and we would swim together. ) I work out much harder when there are other swimmers there to push me. The pool is near my home and the fee is fair.
But the team has been changing lately. Fewer people are coming and our coach has been spending more time sitting with the lifeguard than actually coaching. I’ve been coming up with suggestions for how to get the team back to more competitive levels, yet each idea has been shot down. My frustrations came to a head yesterday when I quit. The coach wasn’t respectful of an idea I suggested and I could feel my face growing hot in anger as she spoke to me in front of the other swimmers. Slowly, I pulled myself out of the water and returned to the locker room, literally biting my tongue.
I can’t change the coach. I can’t get more people in the pool. After five years, it’s time to find a new team. I’ve found one closer to work with more workout times available and a more experienced coaching staff, but I will miss my friends in Tempe. Perhaps with time I’ll return. Tomorrow, I’m swimming with a new group.
Then, it was off to Sedona. I left the house, grabbed my iPod and Nalgene bottles full of water and ice tea and headed north 100 miles. The drive is beautiful. From the interstate, you climb 3000 feet in elevation and can watch as the desert floor slowly transforms into brush and eventually pine. The beauty of the red rocks of Sedona stun me every time.
Of course yesterday the weather matched my mood. My plans of taking a long walk with my camera before my meeting were foiled.
That’s right — yesterday was one of three days we’ve had rain in the last 5 months. Mother Nature is mocking me.

At least you can see a bit of the red in this photo. Oh, the rain.
The business meeting went well and on my way home my brother calls. He needed to do laundry. Could he come over and use my machine and soap? Grinding my teeth, I agreed to meet him at my house at 5 pm. I drove like the wind to get home in time to meet him, trying desperately not to get angry that the last time I heard from him, he needed a ride home from the airport. I was beginning to feel a bit used. The anger again exploded when he called at 6:15 to say he’d instead gone out with his friends to play pool.
Gah!
At this point, I poured myself a nice glass of white wine, turned off my cell phone, turned on the BBC and sat down at my sewing machine. Creative time really does take the edge off. Well, that and the booze.
~K